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Challenge 25

The Fam 🙂

 

Family is everything to me.  They play many roles in my life: the friend, the disciplinarians, role models, the comedians, the story tellers, the ones who did all those bad things first so that when you thought about doing them you remembered how it didn’t turn out well when they did it so you won’t do it either (haha), the chefs, the workaholics, and the foundation upon which made me who I am… Someone I am proud to be.

 

Both my mom and dad’s side of the family are very large, but two very very different types of people:

My mom’s side of the family are basically what you’d call the big teddy bears… Tough on the outside, but always warm and fuzzy when you go in for the hug 🙂 They are tight… big family dinners every holiday thanks to my grandma’s amazing cooking (and of course I’m learnin the ropes in that department as well), big family get together on my birthday (and used to be every birthday, but then people started growing up and having their separate lives so we usually just try and get together on the holidays nowadays) and growing up most of the family never missed a niece or nephews/ grandkid/ son and/or daughter’s sporting event.  My grandma and grandpa had 3 kids: My momma was the baby, then my Uncle Charles, and then my Uncle Jackie.  It was sure a surprise when my momma was born because if anything everyone thought it’d be another boy (my momma was only the 2nd girl born into the family in over 60 years, and I was the third!) My Uncle Charles and Aunt Lori had my cousin Cody, who’s a little over a year younger than me; My Uncle Jackie and Aunt Loretta had 2 boys: Ricky, who is 3 years older than me and Bruce who is 3 years older than Ricky.  Needless to say I never went a moment without being wrestled to the ground, teased about my boyfriends, or having to stand my ground to prove that I didn’t want to be treated different than the boy because I could hold my own.  Nobody better tested my strength (mentally and physically), my willpower, and my comeback skills better than my Uncle Jackie; Being 6’5’’ and over 300 lbs with a voice that could be heard from the other end of the earth you had to learn how to stand your ground and take the teasin’ which was a life lesson well learned for me to be carefree and go with the flow of life.  Ya see, my mom’s side of the family is tough, but the love that we had for one another runs deep, so deep that every hug can be felt from your skin clear to the depths of heart.  That love came in handy when my Uncle Jackie passed away.  The tight family was tested, the love needed more than ever, and then there was silence. More than ever we were thankful for the goodbye hugs and kisses and I love you that always accompanied the goodbyes. I am thankful for those moments and I choose to never take them for granted.

 

My daddy’s side of the family is often the other end of the spectrum.  No get togethers for the holidays, birthdays, and or just-because occasions… My dad’s side of the family is very large… My granny Helen (great grandma) had 9 kids and by the time of her 70th birthday she had over 120 decendents… she is now almost 91.  My dad’s mom passed away when he was 21… I really feel that that is the reason in which my dad’s side of the family is not very close.  They haven’t had that one person to take the initiative to make them get together and appreciate everyone’s company.  If grandma Peggy was here, she would whip them into shape; I know she is looking down upon us and shaking her head because she knows that life is all too short and the time we have with our family should be treasured more than any object you can attain.  My grandpa Al has thankfully always been a part of MY life though, and is starting to realize just how important spending time with your family is, and that that is all that me and my parents have ever ask for from him… his time and love.  He’s been to every birthday party, came to all my softball games that were close to home, and always checks in on me… He’s a force to be reckoned with and his tough exterior has slowly softened up over the years. I see alot of grandpa in my dad (tough love, hardworking, mechanically minded, crafty), but I also see a lot of what is probably my grandma Peggy shining through (always helpful, problem solver, appreciative, would rather do something for somebody else than have someone else do something for him). 

 

This has been a long blog entry I know, but family is honestly the most important thing in my life… I’ve loved and lost so many people within the last few years that mean more than words could ever say to me, but I can be proud of who I am every day because I made time to see them, love them, and appreciate them for just who they are and our times spent together. 

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Challenge 24

Ipod Shuffle time!

10 songs from itunes on shuffle 🙂

 

1. James Otto- “Just got Started Lovin’ you!”

2. Lonestar- “I’m already there”

3. Naturi Naughton & Collins Pennie- “Can’t Hide from love” (from FAME soundtrack)

4. Mayday Parade- “Take this to heart”

5. Jason Reeves- “You in a song” (AMAZING SONG btw 🙂 )

6. Jack Johnson- “Lullaby”

7. Colt Ford- “Mud diggers”

8. Young Jeezy ft. Plies- “Lose My Mind”

9. Linkin Park- “Shadow of the Day”

10. Lil Jon- “Snap ya fingers”

 

*** haha talk about a wide variety of music right there 🙂

I get a little stronger…

Lately I’ve been really inspired by the song by Sara Evans “I get a little bit stronger.”

It has really struck a chord with me… I guess songs in general lately have really hit a weak chord in me…

To understand where I’m coming from, my Uncle Jackie passed away a year ago last September 13… The day after he passed away the song “Cryin for me” by Toby Keith started playing on the radio (Toby Keith has alot of the same characteristics as my uncle had) and this song spoke to my family and I… more than words could ever express. Then on this past September 13th the song “If I die young” by The Band Perry started playing on the radio.  I know he’s trying to reassure us (our family) that he is still with us and that he is still making sure we are ok like he always did.  These past few weeks these two songs have been playing simultaneously on the radio ALL THE TIME.  It’s often overwhelming and I’ve had moments where I just break down while driving in the car or anywhere I hear these songs.

Well now there’s another song.  “A little Bit Stronger” by Sara Evans and this one has struck every chord in my body.  It’s come at a time where I feel lost… for about a month now my emotions have sky rocketed up and down like a roller coaster and I’m in the process of trying to figure out why, and so far I have just come up with that it is not just one thing… it is many things.  But these “things” are not of the nature that I can just change them, they are just experiences in my life where I have to learn to use these moments and add them to the foundation upon which I stand.  These experiences add depth within life and they make you “stronger” if you let them.  I think lately I’ve just been letting these empty feelings overwhelm me and take control when really I need to take hold of them and learn from them, then move forward.  If I do this then I too, will continue to get stronger ever minute, every hour, every day of my life.

I guess all I’m trying to say is that I guess we all go through these rough patches.  Never doubt your abilities to climb over the obstacles in your way.

When you reach an obstacle just remember:

“I know my heart will never be the same
But I’m telling myself I’ll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger”

Thank you Sara Evans 🙂

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Challenge 23

Something I’ve learned…

 

That something would be… you have to be able to please yourself in life before you can begin to please that of those around you.

 

Growing up I felt as if I needed to please those people in my life before I made myself happy. 

My heart has been broken many times because I was more worried about being happy with somebody else than making sure I was happy first.  I have come to find out that if you constantly go through life trying to please others you are often trying to fill a void that is missing inside of yourself. 

Today, I live my life for me.  I am happy, I have no regrets, and I am someone that I can be proud of. Someday, I’ll find that somebody that loves me for me and I’ve learned that I do not have to compromise the person that I am for that to happen. So the day when that person comes along I will truly know all aspects of what it is to be happy.  If that person makes me even happier than my life was before them, then I know I’ve found my happy ending. 

Challenge 22

Favorite Vacation

My favorite vacation of all time was Orlando, FL my junior year of High School for DECA Nationals… The trip cost next to nothing, got to compete at the national level in marketing which is something I love, spend time with friends, and finally see the ocean for the first time in my life with my best friend, Beth.

This is Beth and I at the beach in Daytona, FL! One of my favorite pictures EVER! 😀

This was the resort that we got to stay in! While we were there, Earth, Wind and Fire also played a concert at the pool for a huge Enterprise Car Rental executives party.  This resort was awesome! I had to spend alot of time here so I’m glad it was as amazing as it was… On this trip I got really stressed, which when I get stressed I get sick, and therefore I became sick for the entire trip… I visited the Market that was in the bottom floor along with the Baskin Robbins which has these awesome smoothie things that made me feel better.  The only bad part of this resort was that nothing… and I mean NOTHING was within walking distance.  You had to take a shuttle somewhere or walk 5 miles, but due to this Beth and I found the most AMAZING pizza that got delivered to us 😀

These were what our rooms looked like, and if I remember correctly, Beth and I were in the bed nearest to the window.

This was my very first look at the ocean… It was one of the most amazing moments of my life.  I cannot wait to return to this place.  Along Daytona Beach they had a pier and that is where Beth and I got our henna tattoos and we went shopping in the little hole in the wall shops along the beach.

I think the reason I loved this vacation so much was that it was the last time in my life where I remember feeling safe, happy, at ease, and not having to worry about the car wreck that almost killed me a week after we arrived back home.  Granted, we recently settled my car wreck case, but after 3 years of worry its hard to forget, and in reality it is something I will never forget as much as I’d like to some days.

All of these experiences, grouped into one, have easily placed this vacation at the top of my list… Life changing, forever memorable, and all spent with my best friend. 🙂

Challenge 21

Favorite City…

This one’s easy… Chicago.  I feel as if I have talked a lot about Chicago throughout my blog, but it honestly is one of the most mesmerizing places in the United States.  It’s clean, bright, unique, artsy, lots of good shopping, food, and lots of good places to just sit and enjoy the world around you.  One of my goals is to eventually return there and soak up more of what this amazing and beautiful city has to offer.